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When Is “Enough” Enough Enough! Basta! Vale!
Whatever language we use, how do we define “enough.” Until I was able to
understand “enough” as both a word and a concept, I was trapped in a
state of lack – not thin enough, not attractive enough, not young
enough, not enough money, not enough food, not enough love, not enough
“stuff.” When you never have
enough, you never stop chasing after the transitory things that we think
we need to make us happy and complete.
There’s always something more that we seek, so we are always in a
state of yearning—suspended in mid-air—can’t reach the top and
unable to step down. Success
or defeat. No way out. But I found the way.
Through the grace of Spirit and through the guidance of a dear
friend, the word “enough” appeared for me to contemplate. As I journeyed back
through my past years, I came to realize that I never seemed to be enough
to satisfy just me: not the perfect daughter to be enough for my mother,
not the perfect partner to be enough for my husband, not perfect enough to
be the best mother to my children (I was a single mother so I had to be
even more than enough--a double job), not enough money to keep up, not the
perfect boss/co-worker/leader/employee, whatever AND I had an imperfect
body, to boot. I was always striving to
be better, do better and to be enough for everyone and everything in my
life. Never reaching a goal because I could not define what was
“enough” for me. Then the dawn—clarity
delivered by Spirit. I AM
ENOUGH. A simple statement that I truly and finally understood and
accepted. As long as I am
enough for ME, I have enough of what I need in my life. I retired from my job
when I sat down with pencil and paper and saw how much money I had saved,
acquired, and I realized that I had enough money to live on. So, I applied the same
process to my body: I said “I’m big enough.”
My weight had provided the power—and protection—I needed, but
now I felt powerful enough within me to begin to release what I no longer
needed. I
can now bless my body and thank the weight for getting me though these
years and giving me the protection I needed to fight the good battle of my
life and my choices; but, now
I can move on because I AM ENOUGH. I’ve had enough, done
enough, acquired enough with “it” and now I can release it and give it
peace and rest. The weight did
it’s job and now it can retire. I
can go it alone with less of me physically because I am enough and have
enough spiritually to go forward. Here’s what I know for sure: I may not be enough to some people and I may be too much for others, but I know I AM ENOUGH FOR ME.
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